zzzzz hate the feeling that pple think i know sth
but it turns out that i dun.
and i have to keep asking to make sure we're on the same wavelength.
makes me feel noob and really stupid.
like that time in FOC-.-
sometimes, it also made me feel left out and like my english really suck to not understand anything that's going on.
i think it's just the way i'm feeling after FOC.
probly pressure contained throughout the camp and nowhere to let it out.
Tuesday, July 26, 2011
hmmm it's been damn long since i last posted. shall post abt my Cambodia trip(:
wanted to do a day-by-day recount but it'll be quite boring, so i shall take only the more exciting parts(:
the kopitiam in the shopping mall requires customers to buy coupons and use these coupons to exchange for food.
quite an interesting idea, but abit redundant, like, why waste paper?
then we got our SIM card which is our only connection with the outside world><
then it was a 5hrs ride to Prey Veng! D:
first day in school was fun! played icebreakers+station games with the grades 1-6, and the preschoolers.
the kids are damn cute!!
as usual, there are the ultra kawaii kind like siew mai,
and the ultra cool, no-smile type like hagao aka david(:
and also the bullies, like this boy who always shouts and sort of abuses them><
and also the beauties! girly girls like sophia who like to tie long hairxP
had a really good bonding session with the children, they are really open and very welcoming.
it's pretty obvious that they are used to visitors coming in, i heard just 6mths before we went, there was another YEP group there too.
i was quite apprehensive abt my lesson with the grades 4,5,6.
but it turned out fine cos they're really really responsive!
you can tell who are really smart and who are interested in learning as well as who are just attending the lesson physicallyxP
there's this smart-ass kid who answered everything that i asked, initially it was okay, but he began hogging the attention so i started to ignore him><
he got abit pissed, i could tellxP
then there's this boy called Kla (shit i forgot his real name><)
who's very playful though he can be quite serious when thinking abt answers to my qns, i think this is pretty sweet(:
he was quite touchy though, some of the EAGLE girls dun really like him><
he likes to hug guys for no good reason and very suddenly.
haha now i think of it, many of them like to do that too(:
there's another boy called sophea, who has problems controlling his bladder><
anger din know and she went to hug him on the 3rd day of teaching HAHA!
it's really touching to know that no one really discriminates him just because of his condition, though he did get bullied by that bully i mentioned above.
when we played the icebreakers, during one of the games, we had to sit in a circle and someone will start the game by placing a packet of tissue behind someone else's back. the latter will then chase down the former until he catches him or the former takes his seat.
the rare thing is seeing the older kids letting the little ones play and slowing down just to let them win the seats((:
it'll nvr happen at the Singapore orphanage we went to during pre-trip><
DAVID AND SIEW MAI WERE FREAKING DAMN CUTE WHEN THEY WERE RUNNING!!!!!!!!!!!!!
there's a boy, with 招风耳, he has a super sad story..
apparently, he was found in a rubbish bin when he was just a few months old and he was covered all over with ants..
his parents abandoned him.. fortunately, he was found and sent to the orphanage..
many of the children there actually do have parents, just that they chose to put them in the orphange.
he's one of the most guai children over there, whenever the other children are playing, he'll choose to study and do his hw.
he was also often bullied by other kids for not having any parents>< the lady(one of the children but grade 12) who told us the story is very protective of him, and takes extra care of him, helping him stop the bullying whenever she's there.
i'm just glad that the kid has found a home and will be able to have a future with the education he'll get in Hope Village Prey Veng (HVPV, orphanage's name)
one of our main highlights of the day, other than the wifi the school hasxP
is the lunch hour(:
the lunch is usually cooked by the orphanage, either by the house parents or by the children.
and it's GOOOOOD. they actually cooked my favourite kind of scrambled eggs!
with meat and long beans((:
haha whenever there's veggie, anger would not eat at all, and she ate like super little for every meal-.-
after lunch, we'd go visit the mama shop outside which sells coconut, sugarcane, soft drinks and all kinds of snacks(:
initially wq wont let us drink the sugarcane, and the coconut was never cold enough, so i din rly enjoy the drink><
but after a few days, i insisted on getting the sugarcane, and he relented.
it was the cheapest (S$0.30/packet) and the sweetest sugarcane i've ever drank!!!
and it's damn cooling cos there's alot of ice in the drink <33!
we would also go to the market to shop for more drinks, snacks, souvenirs, slippers and even shoes! many of our shoes cui over there><
some of our favourite snacks include the noodle snack(bacon/spicy), the creamity (panda/choc/orange) and the starfish thingy(it's actually similar to the butterfly flour-y thingy in Singapore)!
a group of us, with the translators, would usually go to the market in the morning.
then in the afternoon, we'd start cooking for dinner.
luckily Rusydi bought like dno how many cans of pre-cooked chicken of many different flavours, then our protein source was settled.
all we had to worry abt was the veggie(:
we tried to cook soup one day but it was fail, cos too much water and not enough time and gas to make the ingredients really soft and the soup sweet.
we also had this scrambled eggs with luncheon meat(canned) which tasted quite nice, despite the saltinessxP
one day, we had some curry chicken and cos we always have leftover baguette from breakfast, Rusydi came up with the idea to use a thin film of oil to heat up the baguette(cut) and then use for dipping into the sauce.
BRILLIANT idea man! yummy!!
throughout the 12days that we stayed, the girls' dorm was infested with many minute little bugs, that were attracted to the light. cos we dumbdumb, left the lights on when we should've switched them off><
in the end, for the first few days, we were quite hardworking and we cleaned up the living room after breakfast, doing stuff like sweeping+mopping+pouring water all over the floor><
something worse than a bugs-infested floor was having a WET bugs-infested floor-.-
the girls nvr really squeeze dry their clothes after they washed them and cos we hung them in the living room overnight to dry, the floor was super wet every morning><
hence the need to pour water on the floor..
haha after a few days, we got tired of the routine hard work and decided to be cleverer.
we only switch on the kitchen lights and one light in the bedroom, leaving the living room unlit,'cept for the light from the kitchen(:
the situation was better though bugs still came, we nvr mopped the floor again after thatxP
the toilets there were.. backward..
it's the kind that you do your business, then you use a small container used for bathing to pour water down the toilet.
to quote huiquan: 'it feels like i'm just diluting it'><
then xiaohui and anger quite funny, they asked if we still can do big business.
xiaohui best, she went over to the GUYS' dorm just to shitxP
thing is, we must do it such that it went down slowly and did not get stuck><
at night, we tend to gossip (abt wq mainly) and htht (learned abt Lin and Goh and CY)or watch movies.
we watched Protege and 13 going on 30.
the latter is boring, protege is nicer(:
but got this part super paiseh>< a sex scene where the noise level was quite high..
then it was not exactly the most appropriate content to watch with EAGLE girls + one EAGLE guy =P
we made and packaged soaps while we're there too!
it was fun, and i actually recognised some of the chemicals from 'impact of chemistry on society'! xP
we had to scrap the soap into shape before packaging it.
then we went to buy items made by the children there, including soap and earrings(:
the earrings are really pretty and unique(:
i bought 3! one for regina and 2 for myselfxP
bought lots of soap for my relatives too.
we had a hand in making baguettes too! the hot and just out of oven ones are the BEST!! we totally koped like 5 baguettes><
the soap distribution was DAMN HOT.
the sun was unrelenting, there was an obvious relief when we entered the sheltered areaxP
we had to learn four lines which mean good morning, we're from Singapore, these soaps are for you and goodbye.
jom reap su-er, kh-niom mopi Singapore, ni sab-poon sen-rub nia, jom reap lear.
funny how all the cows seem to be quite scared of YX, when he's wearing his sunglassesxP
the first one totally peed on the spot and then broke free of his rope and, avoiding YX who's standing pretty close, ran one whole circle to go to the back of its housexP
another peed too, and peed for like a full minute or two>< anger took pics!
hui quan and i totally stayed away from YX for fear of incurring the wrath of the cowsxP
learned how to sign-sing 'Home'!xD
went construction for one day, did alot of hammering in the morning!
it was fun while it lasted, lunch was delicious!
but then came after-lunch tiredness, i totally nua-ed for the whole of the afternoon, being in a bad mood and not being productive at all.
it was only when Rusydi hui quan and i started gossiping did i 'revived' xP
was quite proud of our final product, a sturdy and well-constructed house for a whole family((:
it was a petty that i was only there for one day, but i really enjoyed myself!(:
they made a pretty sign on a piece of wood to indicate our contribution, pics on fb!(:
it rained super heavily on our last day being in the orphanage,
and the lorry leaked like crazy, so in the end we were still drenched and i had to protect my laptop and so i totally bent over it. kena bitten by a vicious ant then-.-
we did the algorithm march and the frenship dance with the kids and did some pretty zai formations on our own!
R&R
was fun! first meal out of prey veng was fantastic! had milktea bubble teaxP
did quite productive shopping on the first day, bought a pair of jeans for USD$6! that's my best purchasexP
then bought cambodian shirts.
on the subsequent days, i also bought many many souvenirs for my family, smugglers and tingwei, including two pretty scarves for my and tw's mothers(:
went to the Toul Sleng Museum where many pple were killed and tortured during the Pol Pot Regime. only 7 survived to tell the story><
displayed the prisoners' photos, torture tools and place of torture.
then went to the Royal Palace, not much inside, mostly not allowed to enter.
there's this flag that will be raised if the king's in the palace, and lowered if he's out, cool.
the jade Buddha in the Silver Pagoda was really pretty((:
went clubbing on the first night!!
the club there is very different, we took a tuk-tuk to the club, SPARK.
it's probly cos it's damn big, that it's damn empty too, only a handful were on the dancefloor when we were there. funny thing was, they were playing the HBO channel on this big screen in front O.o
they have a live band too, with the singers taking turns.
the singers were even younger than us!! oh ya, they dun check our IDs when we enter the club O.o
there were random intermissions when the DJ would just ask everyone to get off the dance floor and slow music will start playing-.-
we saw this little kid who's damn short and small size, he totally look like he's only 12><
we drank a bottle of Johnny Walker, Black Label for USD$90!
we also went to take a boat tour down Mekong River which was basically quite boringxP
went Russian mkt and bought SUPER lots of stuff-.-
then it was 6hrs ride to Siem Reap, during which i was burned to crisp man!
i totally had to change seats cos it was simply too hot to be sitting by the window-.- the aircon SUCKS!!
had abit of a fever that night but ate panadol and was fine after that(:
third day's exciting, we went to Bayon Temple (my fave) with all the huge pillars with four Buddha faces facing each side.
took a kissing Buddha photoxP
went Angkor Wat after that, the walk into the temple was freaking long and unsheltered all the way, so we were totally just walking under the burning sun-.-
there's this statue of a king who had leprosy and hence the terrace it was situated is known as the Leopard King-.-
i took a photo with a horse! it trembled when i touched itxP it totally look like a robot horse that could only blink its eyes, from the way it doesn't move at all!
went for massage that night and it was.. interesting and ticklish..
YX told us his story where the masseurs were massaging him and his fren and then, when they reach the inner thighs, the fren started bursting out in laughter and hw followed. he said, if he suddenly laugh very loudly, we would all know where the masseur is massagingxP
then i got reminded of the story when she was massaging my inner thighs, i couldn't contain my laughter at all!!
hhaah i affected Jiemin tooxP
okk that's it, slping liao.
wanted to do a day-by-day recount but it'll be quite boring, so i shall take only the more exciting parts(:
the kopitiam in the shopping mall requires customers to buy coupons and use these coupons to exchange for food.
quite an interesting idea, but abit redundant, like, why waste paper?
then we got our SIM card which is our only connection with the outside world><
then it was a 5hrs ride to Prey Veng! D:
first day in school was fun! played icebreakers+station games with the grades 1-6, and the preschoolers.
the kids are damn cute!!
as usual, there are the ultra kawaii kind like siew mai,
and the ultra cool, no-smile type like hagao aka david(:
and also the bullies, like this boy who always shouts and sort of abuses them><
and also the beauties! girly girls like sophia who like to tie long hairxP
had a really good bonding session with the children, they are really open and very welcoming.
it's pretty obvious that they are used to visitors coming in, i heard just 6mths before we went, there was another YEP group there too.
i was quite apprehensive abt my lesson with the grades 4,5,6.
but it turned out fine cos they're really really responsive!
you can tell who are really smart and who are interested in learning as well as who are just attending the lesson physicallyxP
there's this smart-ass kid who answered everything that i asked, initially it was okay, but he began hogging the attention so i started to ignore him><
he got abit pissed, i could tellxP
then there's this boy called Kla (shit i forgot his real name><)
who's very playful though he can be quite serious when thinking abt answers to my qns, i think this is pretty sweet(:
he was quite touchy though, some of the EAGLE girls dun really like him><
he likes to hug guys for no good reason and very suddenly.
haha now i think of it, many of them like to do that too(:
there's another boy called sophea, who has problems controlling his bladder><
anger din know and she went to hug him on the 3rd day of teaching HAHA!
it's really touching to know that no one really discriminates him just because of his condition, though he did get bullied by that bully i mentioned above.
when we played the icebreakers, during one of the games, we had to sit in a circle and someone will start the game by placing a packet of tissue behind someone else's back. the latter will then chase down the former until he catches him or the former takes his seat.
the rare thing is seeing the older kids letting the little ones play and slowing down just to let them win the seats((:
it'll nvr happen at the Singapore orphanage we went to during pre-trip><
DAVID AND SIEW MAI WERE FREAKING DAMN CUTE WHEN THEY WERE RUNNING!!!!!!!!!!!!!
there's a boy, with 招风耳, he has a super sad story..
apparently, he was found in a rubbish bin when he was just a few months old and he was covered all over with ants..
his parents abandoned him.. fortunately, he was found and sent to the orphanage..
many of the children there actually do have parents, just that they chose to put them in the orphange.
he's one of the most guai children over there, whenever the other children are playing, he'll choose to study and do his hw.
he was also often bullied by other kids for not having any parents>< the lady(one of the children but grade 12) who told us the story is very protective of him, and takes extra care of him, helping him stop the bullying whenever she's there.
i'm just glad that the kid has found a home and will be able to have a future with the education he'll get in Hope Village Prey Veng (HVPV, orphanage's name)
one of our main highlights of the day, other than the wifi the school hasxP
is the lunch hour(:
the lunch is usually cooked by the orphanage, either by the house parents or by the children.
and it's GOOOOOD. they actually cooked my favourite kind of scrambled eggs!
with meat and long beans((:
haha whenever there's veggie, anger would not eat at all, and she ate like super little for every meal-.-
after lunch, we'd go visit the mama shop outside which sells coconut, sugarcane, soft drinks and all kinds of snacks(:
initially wq wont let us drink the sugarcane, and the coconut was never cold enough, so i din rly enjoy the drink><
but after a few days, i insisted on getting the sugarcane, and he relented.
it was the cheapest (S$0.30/packet) and the sweetest sugarcane i've ever drank!!!
and it's damn cooling cos there's alot of ice in the drink <33!
we would also go to the market to shop for more drinks, snacks, souvenirs, slippers and even shoes! many of our shoes cui over there><
some of our favourite snacks include the noodle snack(bacon/spicy), the creamity (panda/choc/orange) and the starfish thingy(it's actually similar to the butterfly flour-y thingy in Singapore)!
a group of us, with the translators, would usually go to the market in the morning.
then in the afternoon, we'd start cooking for dinner.
luckily Rusydi bought like dno how many cans of pre-cooked chicken of many different flavours, then our protein source was settled.
all we had to worry abt was the veggie(:
we tried to cook soup one day but it was fail, cos too much water and not enough time and gas to make the ingredients really soft and the soup sweet.
we also had this scrambled eggs with luncheon meat(canned) which tasted quite nice, despite the saltinessxP
one day, we had some curry chicken and cos we always have leftover baguette from breakfast, Rusydi came up with the idea to use a thin film of oil to heat up the baguette(cut) and then use for dipping into the sauce.
BRILLIANT idea man! yummy!!
throughout the 12days that we stayed, the girls' dorm was infested with many minute little bugs, that were attracted to the light. cos we dumbdumb, left the lights on when we should've switched them off><
in the end, for the first few days, we were quite hardworking and we cleaned up the living room after breakfast, doing stuff like sweeping+mopping+pouring water all over the floor><
something worse than a bugs-infested floor was having a WET bugs-infested floor-.-
the girls nvr really squeeze dry their clothes after they washed them and cos we hung them in the living room overnight to dry, the floor was super wet every morning><
hence the need to pour water on the floor..
haha after a few days, we got tired of the routine hard work and decided to be cleverer.
we only switch on the kitchen lights and one light in the bedroom, leaving the living room unlit,'cept for the light from the kitchen(:
the situation was better though bugs still came, we nvr mopped the floor again after thatxP
the toilets there were.. backward..
it's the kind that you do your business, then you use a small container used for bathing to pour water down the toilet.
to quote huiquan: 'it feels like i'm just diluting it'><
then xiaohui and anger quite funny, they asked if we still can do big business.
xiaohui best, she went over to the GUYS' dorm just to shitxP
thing is, we must do it such that it went down slowly and did not get stuck><
at night, we tend to gossip (abt wq mainly) and htht (learned abt Lin and Goh and CY)or watch movies.
we watched Protege and 13 going on 30.
the latter is boring, protege is nicer(:
but got this part super paiseh>< a sex scene where the noise level was quite high..
then it was not exactly the most appropriate content to watch with EAGLE girls + one EAGLE guy =P
we made and packaged soaps while we're there too!
it was fun, and i actually recognised some of the chemicals from 'impact of chemistry on society'! xP
we had to scrap the soap into shape before packaging it.
then we went to buy items made by the children there, including soap and earrings(:
the earrings are really pretty and unique(:
i bought 3! one for regina and 2 for myselfxP
bought lots of soap for my relatives too.
we had a hand in making baguettes too! the hot and just out of oven ones are the BEST!! we totally koped like 5 baguettes><
the soap distribution was DAMN HOT.
the sun was unrelenting, there was an obvious relief when we entered the sheltered areaxP
we had to learn four lines which mean good morning, we're from Singapore, these soaps are for you and goodbye.
jom reap su-er, kh-niom mopi Singapore, ni sab-poon sen-rub nia, jom reap lear.
funny how all the cows seem to be quite scared of YX, when he's wearing his sunglassesxP
the first one totally peed on the spot and then broke free of his rope and, avoiding YX who's standing pretty close, ran one whole circle to go to the back of its housexP
another peed too, and peed for like a full minute or two>< anger took pics!
hui quan and i totally stayed away from YX for fear of incurring the wrath of the cowsxP
learned how to sign-sing 'Home'!xD
went construction for one day, did alot of hammering in the morning!
it was fun while it lasted, lunch was delicious!
but then came after-lunch tiredness, i totally nua-ed for the whole of the afternoon, being in a bad mood and not being productive at all.
it was only when Rusydi hui quan and i started gossiping did i 'revived' xP
was quite proud of our final product, a sturdy and well-constructed house for a whole family((:
it was a petty that i was only there for one day, but i really enjoyed myself!(:
they made a pretty sign on a piece of wood to indicate our contribution, pics on fb!(:
it rained super heavily on our last day being in the orphanage,
and the lorry leaked like crazy, so in the end we were still drenched and i had to protect my laptop and so i totally bent over it. kena bitten by a vicious ant then-.-
we did the algorithm march and the frenship dance with the kids and did some pretty zai formations on our own!
R&R
was fun! first meal out of prey veng was fantastic! had milktea bubble teaxP
did quite productive shopping on the first day, bought a pair of jeans for USD$6! that's my best purchasexP
then bought cambodian shirts.
on the subsequent days, i also bought many many souvenirs for my family, smugglers and tingwei, including two pretty scarves for my and tw's mothers(:
went to the Toul Sleng Museum where many pple were killed and tortured during the Pol Pot Regime. only 7 survived to tell the story><
displayed the prisoners' photos, torture tools and place of torture.
then went to the Royal Palace, not much inside, mostly not allowed to enter.
there's this flag that will be raised if the king's in the palace, and lowered if he's out, cool.
the jade Buddha in the Silver Pagoda was really pretty((:
went clubbing on the first night!!
the club there is very different, we took a tuk-tuk to the club, SPARK.
it's probly cos it's damn big, that it's damn empty too, only a handful were on the dancefloor when we were there. funny thing was, they were playing the HBO channel on this big screen in front O.o
they have a live band too, with the singers taking turns.
the singers were even younger than us!! oh ya, they dun check our IDs when we enter the club O.o
there were random intermissions when the DJ would just ask everyone to get off the dance floor and slow music will start playing-.-
we saw this little kid who's damn short and small size, he totally look like he's only 12><
we drank a bottle of Johnny Walker, Black Label for USD$90!
we also went to take a boat tour down Mekong River which was basically quite boringxP
went Russian mkt and bought SUPER lots of stuff-.-
then it was 6hrs ride to Siem Reap, during which i was burned to crisp man!
i totally had to change seats cos it was simply too hot to be sitting by the window-.- the aircon SUCKS!!
had abit of a fever that night but ate panadol and was fine after that(:
third day's exciting, we went to Bayon Temple (my fave) with all the huge pillars with four Buddha faces facing each side.
took a kissing Buddha photoxP
went Angkor Wat after that, the walk into the temple was freaking long and unsheltered all the way, so we were totally just walking under the burning sun-.-
there's this statue of a king who had leprosy and hence the terrace it was situated is known as the Leopard King-.-
i took a photo with a horse! it trembled when i touched itxP it totally look like a robot horse that could only blink its eyes, from the way it doesn't move at all!
went for massage that night and it was.. interesting and ticklish..
YX told us his story where the masseurs were massaging him and his fren and then, when they reach the inner thighs, the fren started bursting out in laughter and hw followed. he said, if he suddenly laugh very loudly, we would all know where the masseur is massagingxP
then i got reminded of the story when she was massaging my inner thighs, i couldn't contain my laughter at all!!
hhaah i affected Jiemin tooxP
okk that's it, slping liao.
Friday, March 11, 2011
it's been quite awhile since i last blogged, so i've decided to blog sth now!(:
hmmm next week is my 21st birthday party, and the following, i'll really turn 21 le..
feels kind of scary, and liberating i guess.
scary cos once i'm officially adult, there's rly no law or anything that can protect me in any way, can't think of any now><
i'll really be responsible for my own actions and though my frens and family will still be there, i would not be able to rely on them as much):
well, maybe frens still can rely((:
haha liberating as in, i can go into casinos without anyone stopping me? xP
not that i have much interest in themxP
i dun think i'd dare to watch any R21 gore or horror movies and for sexual content, haha i'm a woman, wad's there to see? xPP
hmmm actually, i'm really glad that i am gna hold these parties cos otherwise, this birthday would have felt like any other)):
i hated birthdays that are spent alone, or spent not with the pple you care about.
so i guess this birthday will be my most blessed birthday in years to come? ((:
and sigh.. it'll be my last birthday spent with dear before he flies off for 4years..
i should really be born in july then it's always pretty near sch hols no matter your age/school/country haha.
butbut!
it's not really the birthday la, most imptly, it's the time spent tgt.
if not for these wonderful times spent tgt, i wouldn't be able to make it through the other times><
ohh that time that i posted abt my cousin's breakup?
apparently, the guy was interested in another girl from his church..
and he gave the stupid excuse of clashing personalities.
like wadthehell. please say that after YEARS of relationship..
okay maybe i shouldn't say that cos he may be trying his hardest to make it work..
i hope the situation is not wad i fear it might be..
cos i wanna believe in my cousin><
i dun want things to turn out that way..
zzz my junior, also just got dumped by her 6-years boyfriend, who left her for another girl.
seriously.. all these shit nowadays..
make me start to worry a little..
but i gta believe in dear(:
had dinner with ttj, huric and dear yesterday night after pilates.
it was pleasant, guess i was abit worried abt how the guys will act in front of each other haha.
yay!! birthday party in FOUR DAYS!!!
hmmm next week is my 21st birthday party, and the following, i'll really turn 21 le..
feels kind of scary, and liberating i guess.
scary cos once i'm officially adult, there's rly no law or anything that can protect me in any way, can't think of any now><
i'll really be responsible for my own actions and though my frens and family will still be there, i would not be able to rely on them as much):
well, maybe frens still can rely((:
haha liberating as in, i can go into casinos without anyone stopping me? xP
not that i have much interest in themxP
i dun think i'd dare to watch any R21 gore or horror movies and for sexual content, haha i'm a woman, wad's there to see? xPP
hmmm actually, i'm really glad that i am gna hold these parties cos otherwise, this birthday would have felt like any other)):
i hated birthdays that are spent alone, or spent not with the pple you care about.
so i guess this birthday will be my most blessed birthday in years to come? ((:
and sigh.. it'll be my last birthday spent with dear before he flies off for 4years..
i should really be born in july then it's always pretty near sch hols no matter your age/school/country haha.
butbut!
it's not really the birthday la, most imptly, it's the time spent tgt.
if not for these wonderful times spent tgt, i wouldn't be able to make it through the other times><
ohh that time that i posted abt my cousin's breakup?
apparently, the guy was interested in another girl from his church..
and he gave the stupid excuse of clashing personalities.
like wadthehell. please say that after YEARS of relationship..
okay maybe i shouldn't say that cos he may be trying his hardest to make it work..
i hope the situation is not wad i fear it might be..
cos i wanna believe in my cousin><
i dun want things to turn out that way..
zzz my junior, also just got dumped by her 6-years boyfriend, who left her for another girl.
seriously.. all these shit nowadays..
make me start to worry a little..
but i gta believe in dear(:
had dinner with ttj, huric and dear yesterday night after pilates.
it was pleasant, guess i was abit worried abt how the guys will act in front of each other haha.
yay!! birthday party in FOUR DAYS!!!
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
i'm damn sad)):
my cousin just broke up from a super long relationship)):
i'm so sad cos i thought they look really sweet tgt, and that they would last..
from wad i gather,
i think he broke up with her..
i think he felt that she kept on taking and not giving, that's why he feel tired?
i can't really say anything, i know nth..
but seriously, wad makes a relationship work?
both parties must work hard,
spend time to know each other, to accompany each other, just to be with each other.
both sides must be able to sort out their unhappiness with the other party early on in the relationship,
or it may become a wedge that eventually drives them apart < /3
this made me reflect on our relationship, and i'm rly glad we did talk it out(:
all these talks made me treasure our relationship more((:
sometimes, when i'm tired, i may need a bit more patience from you, but i know, you'll always be there for me, no matter whether you're with me or not.
it's just that my cousin's breakup made me a bit scared of LDR actually..
if you can just stop a relationship when you're spending time tgt regularly, what will become of our relationship? )):
but i do trust you, hope you have the same faith in me and we'll get through this tgt and come out stronger((:
*clink* <3
my cousin just broke up from a super long relationship)):
i'm so sad cos i thought they look really sweet tgt, and that they would last..
from wad i gather,
i think he broke up with her..
i think he felt that she kept on taking and not giving, that's why he feel tired?
i can't really say anything, i know nth..
but seriously, wad makes a relationship work?
both parties must work hard,
spend time to know each other, to accompany each other, just to be with each other.
both sides must be able to sort out their unhappiness with the other party early on in the relationship,
or it may become a wedge that eventually drives them apart < /3
this made me reflect on our relationship, and i'm rly glad we did talk it out(:
all these talks made me treasure our relationship more((:
sometimes, when i'm tired, i may need a bit more patience from you, but i know, you'll always be there for me, no matter whether you're with me or not.
it's just that my cousin's breakup made me a bit scared of LDR actually..
if you can just stop a relationship when you're spending time tgt regularly, what will become of our relationship? )):
but i do trust you, hope you have the same faith in me and we'll get through this tgt and come out stronger((:
*clink* <3
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
i've been feeling really emo these few days..
and it has affected dear..
i'm so sorry for that esp when you just started your internship.
i just saw this song from a link on fb,
'tonight i wanna cry'
though as usual, i cant catch the lyrics,
i read the comments below and some were rly rly sad.
at least at the point tt i was reading, i could relate to them.
and i should treasure our relationship more,
by not giving dear unnecessary grief that might jeopardise our relationship.
everytime i do that, i feel really guilty and scared.
and sorry..
i need to make a conscious effort to prevent myself from falling into this mood..
it's a vicious cycle.
resolution 2011.
and it has affected dear..
i'm so sorry for that esp when you just started your internship.
i just saw this song from a link on fb,
'tonight i wanna cry'
though as usual, i cant catch the lyrics,
i read the comments below and some were rly rly sad.
at least at the point tt i was reading, i could relate to them.
and i should treasure our relationship more,
by not giving dear unnecessary grief that might jeopardise our relationship.
everytime i do that, i feel really guilty and scared.
and sorry..
i need to make a conscious effort to prevent myself from falling into this mood..
it's a vicious cycle.
resolution 2011.
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
wahhhhh heng sia!!
CGPA never drop, instead it rose by 0.01!
one sad thing is, i got B+ for lab):
and A- for hp806):
the rest got A or A+!
quite glad that i got A+ for HMJ1((:
too bad i couldn't add hmj2 now..
and i just realised today that entrepreneurship is offered this sem!!
and i also couldn't add it..
hope they dun make it pass/fail next sem!!
CGPA never drop, instead it rose by 0.01!
one sad thing is, i got B+ for lab):
and A- for hp806):
the rest got A or A+!
quite glad that i got A+ for HMJ1((:
too bad i couldn't add hmj2 now..
and i just realised today that entrepreneurship is offered this sem!!
and i also couldn't add it..
hope they dun make it pass/fail next sem!!
Sunday, January 16, 2011
sigh~ i'm feeling moody again.
today i was the garang guni again, this time for CAC FOC.
overall, it was quite fun la, except that it became super tiring and sian towards the end.
from 5 blocks become like almost 10blocks.. i still thought i could leave early.
and the worst thing is, at the end, the main comm pple who did the last block with me, they were so slack that i felt quite angry, like why the hell am i doing more work than them?
and i thought their attitude was not appropriate, who smses when asking for donations? and who asks for donations in a totally sian diao voice?
luckily this is my last canvassing for foc.
hopefully the one for SPMS FOC will be much better.
i'm sick of garang guni, i'm nvr going for any garang gunis after the spms one.
lol in the end, i literally had to limp home after that, couldn't even get the energy to walk to hougang mall for dinner with family.
sigh~ asked my dad to buy ppc back, but he went for so long, i decided not to drink it anymore.
cooked dinner for myself, spicy maggie mee that's almost dry cos there was too little water-.-
rahh and my life sucks.
today i was the garang guni again, this time for CAC FOC.
overall, it was quite fun la, except that it became super tiring and sian towards the end.
from 5 blocks become like almost 10blocks.. i still thought i could leave early.
and the worst thing is, at the end, the main comm pple who did the last block with me, they were so slack that i felt quite angry, like why the hell am i doing more work than them?
and i thought their attitude was not appropriate, who smses when asking for donations? and who asks for donations in a totally sian diao voice?
luckily this is my last canvassing for foc.
hopefully the one for SPMS FOC will be much better.
i'm sick of garang guni, i'm nvr going for any garang gunis after the spms one.
lol in the end, i literally had to limp home after that, couldn't even get the energy to walk to hougang mall for dinner with family.
sigh~ asked my dad to buy ppc back, but he went for so long, i decided not to drink it anymore.
cooked dinner for myself, spicy maggie mee that's almost dry cos there was too little water-.-
rahh and my life sucks.
Saturday, January 01, 2011
HAPPY NEW YEAR PEEPS!! xDD
and HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR!!(:
wow 2010 was QUITE an eventful year for me><
it started not that well, with joe, and i'm still feeling quite bad towards him):
then february was ok~ with some ups and downs
but march onwards till may was quite shit><
THEN, TAIWAN TRIP!!! xDDD
omg, it felt sooooooooo long ago la!! like years ago..
time may pass by quickly during the sem but hols that have passed always seem so far away.....
then it's june, i got tgt with dear<3!!
there were good and bad times with him too><
this sem, there were some major changes,
cbc gang changed, roomie changed, squattor added(:
dear ROD!
realised i sucked at writing lab reports):
endured my first sem without my st nicks gang)):
finally took a chem mod that actually shocked me with its difficultyxP
experienced taking an exam on christmas eve's eve!
and last but not least,
I GOT MY DRIVING LICENSE!!!! xDDD
thanks so much to all who've helped me pull through this whole year, esp when i'm down((:
thanks dear for just being there and being my emotional support through all the obstacles i've faced, thanks for putting up with my bad temper((: you are my happiness(:
thanks ly for always being able to tell when i'm feeling emo and so, provide me with comfort when i need it(:
thanks gor, aman, ttj, mar and siak for all the fun times we had, whether in taiwan or in singapore, WE MUST GO OVERSEAS TGT AGAIN!! thanks for being there in my life((:
thanks val for coming back once in awhile and making me realise how much i've missed you!
thanks ning for your academic motivation and encouragement and the fun fun roomie times tgt! <3 cookie, eeyore, kellie and qizai!! cup noodles supper again soon! xD
thanks adeline for listening to my complaints [you noe what((:], and giving me useful advice! i'll always be there to listen to you when you need me too(:
thanks jiada for the random jokes that are getting less and less funnyxPP and for making every outing with you enjoyable!(:
thanks BFF kelvin for the very pretty birthday gift and your encouragement [and niao-ing]!
thanks CBC gang for the late night mugging sessions and being there to prevent me from falling back to being a loner(:
thanks SIRIUS for the fun and laughter you guys brought to my life!(: SIRIUS SHINING!!
thanks KRIFFIN for not excluding me despite my lack of participation in your activities><
thanks to my parents and brother for the silent support that i can always count on, whatever difficulties i face((:
thanks wei for the christmas card and for being such an endearing little sister that i never had((:
well, thanks and sorry to joe, for the misery i've brought him and for the short period of joy he brought me.
thanks to benedict ng, tester for tan shu min on 31st dec 2010, 1st time slot, for his faith in me and belief that i can do it(:
thanks to all who've made an impact in my life, be it a ripple or a wave, (or even a tsunamixD) I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!!!!!!!! xDDD
and HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR!!(:
wow 2010 was QUITE an eventful year for me><
it started not that well, with joe, and i'm still feeling quite bad towards him):
then february was ok~ with some ups and downs
but march onwards till may was quite shit><
THEN, TAIWAN TRIP!!! xDDD
omg, it felt sooooooooo long ago la!! like years ago..
time may pass by quickly during the sem but hols that have passed always seem so far away.....
then it's june, i got tgt with dear<3!!
there were good and bad times with him too><
this sem, there were some major changes,
cbc gang changed, roomie changed, squattor added(:
dear ROD!
realised i sucked at writing lab reports):
endured my first sem without my st nicks gang)):
finally took a chem mod that actually shocked me with its difficultyxP
experienced taking an exam on christmas eve's eve!
and last but not least,
I GOT MY DRIVING LICENSE!!!! xDDD
thanks so much to all who've helped me pull through this whole year, esp when i'm down((:
thanks dear for just being there and being my emotional support through all the obstacles i've faced, thanks for putting up with my bad temper((: you are my happiness(:
thanks ly for always being able to tell when i'm feeling emo and so, provide me with comfort when i need it(:
thanks gor, aman, ttj, mar and siak for all the fun times we had, whether in taiwan or in singapore, WE MUST GO OVERSEAS TGT AGAIN!! thanks for being there in my life((:
thanks val for coming back once in awhile and making me realise how much i've missed you!
thanks ning for your academic motivation and encouragement and the fun fun roomie times tgt! <3 cookie, eeyore, kellie and qizai!! cup noodles supper again soon! xD
thanks adeline for listening to my complaints [you noe what((:], and giving me useful advice! i'll always be there to listen to you when you need me too(:
thanks jiada for the random jokes that are getting less and less funnyxPP and for making every outing with you enjoyable!(:
thanks BFF kelvin for the very pretty birthday gift and your encouragement [and niao-ing]!
thanks CBC gang for the late night mugging sessions and being there to prevent me from falling back to being a loner(:
thanks SIRIUS for the fun and laughter you guys brought to my life!(: SIRIUS SHINING!!
thanks KRIFFIN for not excluding me despite my lack of participation in your activities><
thanks to my parents and brother for the silent support that i can always count on, whatever difficulties i face((:
thanks wei for the christmas card and for being such an endearing little sister that i never had((:
well, thanks and sorry to joe, for the misery i've brought him and for the short period of joy he brought me.
thanks to benedict ng, tester for tan shu min on 31st dec 2010, 1st time slot, for his faith in me and belief that i can do it(:
thanks to all who've made an impact in my life, be it a ripple or a wave, (or even a tsunamixD) I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!!!!!!!! xDDD
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
wonder how they do that, so colourful!!
exotic-looking flowers(:
ooooooooooo my fave!! blue rose((: but it's only nice when they are THIS blue><
for the purple-lovers out there! you noe who you are ;)
NICEEE(:
last but not least, combining two things that i like--ferrero bouquet! xD
tadaa~ that's all folks!
Tuesday, December 21, 2010
MY GOODNESS.
just woke up from a nightmare.
the thing is, i rmb switching off my alarm at 8am, then i had my nightmare after that,
and woke up an hour later-.-
i rmb it vividly.
i was having an exam, in my house.
i was quite shocked cos i nvr attended any lect/tut of this module b4.
but caining did.
and she was the one who urged me to go for the exam despite me not going for any lect cos it was supposed to be easy.
and i still rmb that my exam paper was stapled at one corner, instead of the usual booklet form.
and that i thought tt's cos i nvr technically registered for the module lol.
during the exam, i was stuck on alot of qns.
the qns are mainly pictures, and asking us to label the english names of things in the school.
it was supposed to be some translation module, from chinese to english i think.
i rmb looking at sngs' forum's stairs, taken from sitting on the middle step of the forum.
and thinking that it was HC the whole time haha.
i was stuck on the qns, and i tried asking for help from ning, cos apparently she urged me to take the exam cos she'll help me.
haha i rmb writing this word, aglazarium or dunno wad, and it was pointing at the stairs, like wth???
after that page, suddenly there's an ongoing jap exam, which I'M taking too.
and i finished it before i rmb opening the booklet. and it's open book-.-, cos i saw pple referring to the book.
then all of a sudden, ning is done with her exam, and she gave my HER textbook, even though it's closed book for this exam, and left.
so i took it, secretly flipping through it, frantically trying to find the answers.
then the invigilator came by and WTH. HE WAS MY DAD O.O
i think he sort of guessed that i dno how to do and was obviously cheating.
so i directly asked him for help, cos the textbook had lots of words and no markings at all! how to find the answers?!
and haha, he initially din wanna help, but after DAMN long, he sat down next to me to work out the answer.
lols, my english is better than my dad la.
then *swish* i'm at the exam hall of my last paper O.o
i dun even rmb completing or submitting the translation paper.
i went in with jacket only, then came out to take my pencil case which i forgot to bring in.
on my way out, someone gave me this SUPER GIGANTIC notebook, it's like up to my chin and almost as wide as my arms spread out.
WOW, and it has colour!! first time, i actly rmb tt it has colour!! though abit dull, it's the same dark blue colour as my physics notebook now.
haha then i asked that person who gave it to me, and why the gigantic one when many others got the normal-sized version.
and he said, prof gave it, (i actly rmb prof so at the back giving out the smaller ones O.o, it's not even HIS module's exam!!)
and it's random give the size of the book.
i looked around, and indeed, there were random gigantic notebooks elsewhere.
so i went to put my notebook down and took my pencil case.
and somehow, somewhere, i woke up,
not even jerk awake, i was like floating back to reality, and finally realising that i DID NOT take those exams. hahaha
a super sigh of relief from me.
the last paper part was actly quite short, i was still reeling from the shock that the translation paper was so so hard and ning just left me there)):
------------------------------------------------
end of dream(:
and i checked the clock, it was 8:56am haha.
rahh... nvr wanna dream of that again):
just woke up from a nightmare.
the thing is, i rmb switching off my alarm at 8am, then i had my nightmare after that,
and woke up an hour later-.-
i rmb it vividly.
i was having an exam, in my house.
i was quite shocked cos i nvr attended any lect/tut of this module b4.
but caining did.
and she was the one who urged me to go for the exam despite me not going for any lect cos it was supposed to be easy.
and i still rmb that my exam paper was stapled at one corner, instead of the usual booklet form.
and that i thought tt's cos i nvr technically registered for the module lol.
during the exam, i was stuck on alot of qns.
the qns are mainly pictures, and asking us to label the english names of things in the school.
it was supposed to be some translation module, from chinese to english i think.
i rmb looking at sngs' forum's stairs, taken from sitting on the middle step of the forum.
and thinking that it was HC the whole time haha.
i was stuck on the qns, and i tried asking for help from ning, cos apparently she urged me to take the exam cos she'll help me.
haha i rmb writing this word, aglazarium or dunno wad, and it was pointing at the stairs, like wth???
after that page, suddenly there's an ongoing jap exam, which I'M taking too.
and i finished it before i rmb opening the booklet. and it's open book-.-, cos i saw pple referring to the book.
then all of a sudden, ning is done with her exam, and she gave my HER textbook, even though it's closed book for this exam, and left.
so i took it, secretly flipping through it, frantically trying to find the answers.
then the invigilator came by and WTH. HE WAS MY DAD O.O
i think he sort of guessed that i dno how to do and was obviously cheating.
so i directly asked him for help, cos the textbook had lots of words and no markings at all! how to find the answers?!
and haha, he initially din wanna help, but after DAMN long, he sat down next to me to work out the answer.
lols, my english is better than my dad la.
then *swish* i'm at the exam hall of my last paper O.o
i dun even rmb completing or submitting the translation paper.
i went in with jacket only, then came out to take my pencil case which i forgot to bring in.
on my way out, someone gave me this SUPER GIGANTIC notebook, it's like up to my chin and almost as wide as my arms spread out.
WOW, and it has colour!! first time, i actly rmb tt it has colour!! though abit dull, it's the same dark blue colour as my physics notebook now.
haha then i asked that person who gave it to me, and why the gigantic one when many others got the normal-sized version.
and he said, prof gave it, (i actly rmb prof so at the back giving out the smaller ones O.o, it's not even HIS module's exam!!)
and it's random give the size of the book.
i looked around, and indeed, there were random gigantic notebooks elsewhere.
so i went to put my notebook down and took my pencil case.
and somehow, somewhere, i woke up,
not even jerk awake, i was like floating back to reality, and finally realising that i DID NOT take those exams. hahaha
a super sigh of relief from me.
the last paper part was actly quite short, i was still reeling from the shock that the translation paper was so so hard and ning just left me there)):
------------------------------------------------
end of dream(:
and i checked the clock, it was 8:56am haha.
rahh... nvr wanna dream of that again):
Sunday, December 12, 2010
hahah i'm wasting time blogging and reading my last time posts(:
wahhh i think i should blog more often and blog short posts,
cos i rly enjoyed my short posts(:
actly went back to tag some of my posts haha but having read through them,
i conclude that my english sucks and i can be rly cute at times xDD
and i totally forgot wad some of my posts were abt..
wahhh i think i should blog more often and blog short posts,
cos i rly enjoyed my short posts(:
actly went back to tag some of my posts haha but having read through them,
i conclude that my english sucks and i can be rly cute at times xDD
and i totally forgot wad some of my posts were abt..
this is a late post, supposed to be dated 11 dec 2010(:
went for a wedding with dear ytd at novotel at clarke quay(:
it was the nicest wedding that i ever went for!
probly cos i dun really rmb ever gg to a hotel for wedding dinner before><
only proms.. haha
the decor was pretty, got romantic feel(:
though the candle holders on the table were obviously from the hotel, the paint having peeled off alr><
hahah but all in all the feel was grand and luxurious, with free flow wine, beer, soft drinks and chinese tea(:
whahaha gta talk abt the food!
the first dish will usually come with some sort of performance by the waiters and waitresses, and for this dinner, it was cute!
the waiters and waitresses come out in pairs, with the guy holding the plate and the girl holding a lighted-up red plastic rose, and a veil over her head!
wahahahha damn cute((:
food included: platter of roast pig, wuxiang, jelly fish, spring roll and chicken,
shark's fin soup (yum!)
roast chicken with the mai4 pian4 xia1's mai pian(:
steamed red grouper (xDD)
stewed broccoli with mushrooms
he2 ye4 fan4, lotus leaf glutinous rice
and yam paste(:
i think that's it.. hahah ate till super full cos our table was supposed to have 10 pple, but at any one time, max no of pple was only 7><
haha not surprisingly, the guys engaged in army talk, but i sort of enjoyed it cos part of it can be really funny!xD
then (cos the other guys' wives were not there), they started giving dear and i relationship advice O.o
which was definitely interesting and some logical, but one i particularly dislike><
for that one, dear's orginal idea was that
before marriage, girl-guy ratio: 50-50 chance of winning an argument,
after engagement: 75-25
after marriage: 100-0
which when i first heard i was like O.o serious?? you rly think tt way? xDD
BUT hahah
one of his friends started telling him the order is totally opp)):
LOL obviously he's joking,
tt's why we just laughed it off, and for the rest, take it with a pinch of salt(:
haha another advice: enjoy it while i still can! xP
RAHH i'm supposed to be mugging physics now but can't seem to get the motivation to start again):
shall mug jap first(:
went for a wedding with dear ytd at novotel at clarke quay(:
it was the nicest wedding that i ever went for!
probly cos i dun really rmb ever gg to a hotel for wedding dinner before><
only proms.. haha
the decor was pretty, got romantic feel(:
though the candle holders on the table were obviously from the hotel, the paint having peeled off alr><
hahah but all in all the feel was grand and luxurious, with free flow wine, beer, soft drinks and chinese tea(:
whahaha gta talk abt the food!
the first dish will usually come with some sort of performance by the waiters and waitresses, and for this dinner, it was cute!
the waiters and waitresses come out in pairs, with the guy holding the plate and the girl holding a lighted-up red plastic rose, and a veil over her head!
wahahahha damn cute((:
food included: platter of roast pig, wuxiang, jelly fish, spring roll and chicken,
shark's fin soup (yum!)
roast chicken with the mai4 pian4 xia1's mai pian(:
steamed red grouper (xDD)
stewed broccoli with mushrooms
he2 ye4 fan4, lotus leaf glutinous rice
and yam paste(:
i think that's it.. hahah ate till super full cos our table was supposed to have 10 pple, but at any one time, max no of pple was only 7><
haha not surprisingly, the guys engaged in army talk, but i sort of enjoyed it cos part of it can be really funny!xD
then (cos the other guys' wives were not there), they started giving dear and i relationship advice O.o
which was definitely interesting and some logical, but one i particularly dislike><
for that one, dear's orginal idea was that
before marriage, girl-guy ratio: 50-50 chance of winning an argument,
after engagement: 75-25
after marriage: 100-0
which when i first heard i was like O.o serious?? you rly think tt way? xDD
BUT hahah
one of his friends started telling him the order is totally opp)):
LOL obviously he's joking,
tt's why we just laughed it off, and for the rest, take it with a pinch of salt(:
haha another advice: enjoy it while i still can! xP
RAHH i'm supposed to be mugging physics now but can't seem to get the motivation to start again):
shall mug jap first(:
Friday, December 10, 2010
math was okay,
couldn't do some initially but managed to come up with sth that seems to work to me, but dno if the marker will understand><
and no time to check cos i did too slowly haha..
nvm, hopefully S can liao!
gna start on 212 tonight then tml half day, then physics.
then monday morning jap and after jap, physics all the way till test.
then 212 allllllllllllllll the way.........
shit, doesn't sound like i can cover alot of 212><
GG X.X
and still got wedding dinner tml, dno if still can go):
wanna go though.. but i think i might have slacked so much such that i cannot afford to take any time off liao..
more like i spent too much time on math..
RAHH totally regret it.
but at least now i dn have to worry abt math at all, cos most prob S liao.
if U, i seriously can go kill myself):
212 DIE LEEEEEEEEE
couldn't do some initially but managed to come up with sth that seems to work to me, but dno if the marker will understand><
and no time to check cos i did too slowly haha..
nvm, hopefully S can liao!
gna start on 212 tonight then tml half day, then physics.
then monday morning jap and after jap, physics all the way till test.
then 212 allllllllllllllll the way.........
shit, doesn't sound like i can cover alot of 212><
GG X.X
and still got wedding dinner tml, dno if still can go):
wanna go though.. but i think i might have slacked so much such that i cannot afford to take any time off liao..
more like i spent too much time on math..
RAHH totally regret it.
but at least now i dn have to worry abt math at all, cos most prob S liao.
if U, i seriously can go kill myself):
212 DIE LEEEEEEEEE
HAPPY 6 MONTHS' ANNIVERSARY DEAR!! xDDD
wahahha damn happy today(:
had dinner with dear, at crystal jade!
we ordered this roti prata-like pancake which was quite nice,
the 'long beans' pickles are nice too!
and he ordered this 口水鸡 sth sth 拉面 while i got 鲜虾云吞拉面(:
hahaha bad choice on his part, the lamian was super spicy and i think they spam too much noodles, even for mine, esp when my soup was quite bland><
luckily we got drinks to go with them(:
and of cos! we ordered 福隆一口小笼包xDD
super nice((: but i dripped the soup out for my first one though):
haha ate till super full then we went arcade cos noise helps in digestion(:
we watched this guy play basketball, wah almost 100% accuracy man!
but sure it's train out one><
happy happy when the guy broke the record((:
then we went to play this new shooting game.
as ly's fren had blatantly put, my shooting skills sucks, so i chose t watch onlyxP
dear got A rank! muahahaha(:
and we both played bishibashi, his red button was spoiled and he still won me! O.o
sigh~ video games leave it to him ba, i'll take sudokus and word searches anyday(:
heh heh dear also gave me a prezzie(:
SHO SHWEEET(((: love itxD
is it possible to upload it here?
i feel bad that i din prepare anything for him..
but i'll make it up to him! somehow!(:
<3<3<3<3<3<3 and increasing!
wahahha damn happy today(:
had dinner with dear, at crystal jade!
we ordered this roti prata-like pancake which was quite nice,
the 'long beans' pickles are nice too!
and he ordered this 口水鸡 sth sth 拉面 while i got 鲜虾云吞拉面(:
hahaha bad choice on his part, the lamian was super spicy and i think they spam too much noodles, even for mine, esp when my soup was quite bland><
luckily we got drinks to go with them(:
and of cos! we ordered 福隆一口小笼包xDD
super nice((: but i dripped the soup out for my first one though):
haha ate till super full then we went arcade cos noise helps in digestion(:
we watched this guy play basketball, wah almost 100% accuracy man!
but sure it's train out one><
happy happy when the guy broke the record((:
then we went to play this new shooting game.
as ly's fren had blatantly put, my shooting skills sucks, so i chose t watch onlyxP
dear got A rank! muahahaha(:
and we both played bishibashi, his red button was spoiled and he still won me! O.o
sigh~ video games leave it to him ba, i'll take sudokus and word searches anyday(:
heh heh dear also gave me a prezzie(:
SHO SHWEEET(((: love itxD
is it possible to upload it here?
i feel bad that i din prepare anything for him..
but i'll make it up to him! somehow!(:
<3<3<3<3<3<3 and increasing!
Sunday, December 05, 2010
i've been a really really bad gf for the past few weeks.
i've been throwing tantrums, and suddenly becoming gloomy and cold towards tingwei for no good reason, at least nth tt's reasonable.
i feel petty thinking back on those things):
i think today was the last straw for him,
he suddenly became quite cold towards me and honestly, i was scared, but not so much cos i was still feeling unhappy.
so, we had a talk(:
a v good talk, thrashing good talk.
he asked abt wad unhappiness i had with him.
and i wasn't too sure at first, but eventually, he got it out of me.
sharon..
he said i shouldn't compare myself with her, and she's totally out of his life alr, if he ever meets her on the street, they'll probly act like strangers to each other.
which i felt, was sad..
like you had sth gg on, then not-so-suddenly it's not there liao and you totally cut off all ties with each other.
somehow, it's this strong feeling, even if it's dislike, that makes me insecure ba, like somehow, he cnt let go.
but he assured me, that i dun have to worry abt her at all, that everything's over between them and tt there is NO NEED for comparison between us.
he doesn't do tt, and so shouldn't i.
he said sth that struck a chord in me, if i keep on being bothered abt her, and comparing myself with her, i may eventually become like her, behave like her.
and i dun wanna be compared to her in that way><
'i want a shumin so there's absolutely no need to compare!'
<3
to quote him,
'there is never a happy ending from being unhappy, so as proud economics students who are rational, we should always not become unhappy:)'
<33
i've been throwing tantrums, and suddenly becoming gloomy and cold towards tingwei for no good reason, at least nth tt's reasonable.
i feel petty thinking back on those things):
i think today was the last straw for him,
he suddenly became quite cold towards me and honestly, i was scared, but not so much cos i was still feeling unhappy.
so, we had a talk(:
a v good talk, thrashing good talk.
he asked abt wad unhappiness i had with him.
and i wasn't too sure at first, but eventually, he got it out of me.
sharon..
he said i shouldn't compare myself with her, and she's totally out of his life alr, if he ever meets her on the street, they'll probly act like strangers to each other.
which i felt, was sad..
like you had sth gg on, then not-so-suddenly it's not there liao and you totally cut off all ties with each other.
somehow, it's this strong feeling, even if it's dislike, that makes me insecure ba, like somehow, he cnt let go.
but he assured me, that i dun have to worry abt her at all, that everything's over between them and tt there is NO NEED for comparison between us.
he doesn't do tt, and so shouldn't i.
he said sth that struck a chord in me, if i keep on being bothered abt her, and comparing myself with her, i may eventually become like her, behave like her.
and i dun wanna be compared to her in that way><
'i want a shumin so there's absolutely no need to compare!'
<3
to quote him,
'there is never a happy ending from being unhappy, so as proud economics students who are rational, we should always not become unhappy:)'
<33
Saturday, November 13, 2010
insatiable wants.
am i being greedy?
or am i not given wad i'm entitled to?
zzz saying tt i'm entitled makes me feel like i'm wanting too much.
and that i dn have to spell out wad i want which essentially means no one will noe wad i want-.-
but i just feel sad whenever i think abt it so usually i avoid the thought altgt.
maybe once in awhile i NEED t feel this way, to appreciate things more when i dun.
ya tt's probly the reason for it.
... and i dn wanna talk abt it...
am i being greedy?
or am i not given wad i'm entitled to?
zzz saying tt i'm entitled makes me feel like i'm wanting too much.
and that i dn have to spell out wad i want which essentially means no one will noe wad i want-.-
but i just feel sad whenever i think abt it so usually i avoid the thought altgt.
maybe once in awhile i NEED t feel this way, to appreciate things more when i dun.
ya tt's probly the reason for it.
... and i dn wanna talk abt it...
Sunday, September 12, 2010
woots. it's 3.31am and it is actly quite noisy outside my hse!
must be pple celebrating hari raya.
just wanted to blog cos so nande tt i stay up till so late.
today's maf!
i was excited but dno why the excitement went off in the afternoon such tt by nightime, i was rly quite sian):
lalala it's over, hmm maybe next year dn come back for maf liao..
lol or just go with smugglers(:
island creamery butterscotch ice cream sucks.
melted island creamery butterscotch ice cream sucks even more):
must be pple celebrating hari raya.
just wanted to blog cos so nande tt i stay up till so late.
today's maf!
i was excited but dno why the excitement went off in the afternoon such tt by nightime, i was rly quite sian):
lalala it's over, hmm maybe next year dn come back for maf liao..
lol or just go with smugglers(:
island creamery butterscotch ice cream sucks.
melted island creamery butterscotch ice cream sucks even more):
Saturday, August 28, 2010
had a rly rly insightful htht with my seniors at chalet ytd.
they said, btt you reach your 3rd/6th mth, you realise tt the 2 of you seem to have less and less things to say to each other.
and one thing you shld avoid doing,
looking at the relationship in the long run.
cos if the other party does sth tt irritates you and you think abt how it will continue to irritate you through the years down the road,
it gets harder for you to tolerate.
which i feel can be quite a useful advice.
one thing to bear in mind is tt,
you shld always think for the other party,
dn think for yourself only.
if both parties do things tt the other likes,
both parties will be happy, then the relationship will last.
and boyfriends hate for their girlfriends to 黏 them but at the same time,
dun wanna get to noe his friends.
they do have their own lives after all, and it's too demanding for the girls to expect their bfs to suit their way everytime.
sth quite shocking to me,
one senior mentioned tt he enjoys company of friends over company of girlfriend
which when i heard i was like O.o
even so, he still sticks it out with her.
though he faces lots and lots of probs with his girlfriend ever since last year when they first got tgt.
yet he has the ultimate patience and tolerance to accomodate to his gf, to talk it out with her.
i think he rly rly treasures his relationship(:
another thing tt this senior mentioned,
if you rly rly think tt the relationship cannot hold,
tt you just wanna stick it out cos it's your first relationship,
dun.
you should just let go,
thr's always time for you to find a better one out thr..
they said, btt you reach your 3rd/6th mth, you realise tt the 2 of you seem to have less and less things to say to each other.
and one thing you shld avoid doing,
looking at the relationship in the long run.
cos if the other party does sth tt irritates you and you think abt how it will continue to irritate you through the years down the road,
it gets harder for you to tolerate.
which i feel can be quite a useful advice.
one thing to bear in mind is tt,
you shld always think for the other party,
dn think for yourself only.
if both parties do things tt the other likes,
both parties will be happy, then the relationship will last.
and boyfriends hate for their girlfriends to 黏 them but at the same time,
dun wanna get to noe his friends.
they do have their own lives after all, and it's too demanding for the girls to expect their bfs to suit their way everytime.
sth quite shocking to me,
one senior mentioned tt he enjoys company of friends over company of girlfriend
which when i heard i was like O.o
even so, he still sticks it out with her.
though he faces lots and lots of probs with his girlfriend ever since last year when they first got tgt.
yet he has the ultimate patience and tolerance to accomodate to his gf, to talk it out with her.
i think he rly rly treasures his relationship(:
another thing tt this senior mentioned,
if you rly rly think tt the relationship cannot hold,
tt you just wanna stick it out cos it's your first relationship,
dun.
you should just let go,
thr's always time for you to find a better one out thr..
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
))))))))):
isabelle li din win female indiv gold medal!!
but she got gold though(:
hope the win doesn't go into her head like some other sportsmen..
looking forward to TT mixed comp!!
i'm supposed to be mugging for FTT but i cn't seem to start)=
i better pass it this time, or else my whole driving is GG-fied.
zzz supposed to go picnic ytd, but i totally slept through the whole day!
how piggy can i be?!
sigh~ hopefully i dn crash ever again..
and everytime is tw kena only...
i feel bad towards him)=
.................................................................
just wanna blog abt this..
dno if it's me being sensitive/petty
but i got upset when his mum called and he told her,
'i'm sending shar-shumin home.'
zzzz small mistake.
same one tt my mum makes sometimes when regina comes over t my house.
but i bet my bro nvr made tt mistake....
cos of tt, i felt abit zzz on sun and mon sigh~
today i suddenly started thinking abt how are we gna let 6F peeps and other HC pple noe about our relationship?
i hope by MAF they'll noe, cos i dun wanna feel restrained or like i'm hiding sth)=
is deleting her as a fren mean tt he cnt get over her?
maybe he din at tt pt of time, by now he shld have, he told me so.
i gta stop letting myself get so affected by it, and like so suddenly..
think abt happy happy stuff(:
isabelle li din win female indiv gold medal!!
but she got gold though(:
hope the win doesn't go into her head like some other sportsmen..
looking forward to TT mixed comp!!
i'm supposed to be mugging for FTT but i cn't seem to start)=
i better pass it this time, or else my whole driving is GG-fied.
zzz supposed to go picnic ytd, but i totally slept through the whole day!
how piggy can i be?!
sigh~ hopefully i dn crash ever again..
and everytime is tw kena only...
i feel bad towards him)=
.................................................................
just wanna blog abt this..
dno if it's me being sensitive/petty
but i got upset when his mum called and he told her,
'i'm sending shar-shumin home.'
zzzz small mistake.
same one tt my mum makes sometimes when regina comes over t my house.
but i bet my bro nvr made tt mistake....
cos of tt, i felt abit zzz on sun and mon sigh~
today i suddenly started thinking abt how are we gna let 6F peeps and other HC pple noe about our relationship?
i hope by MAF they'll noe, cos i dun wanna feel restrained or like i'm hiding sth)=
is deleting her as a fren mean tt he cnt get over her?
maybe he din at tt pt of time, by now he shld have, he told me so.
i gta stop letting myself get so affected by it, and like so suddenly..
think abt happy happy stuff(:
Saturday, August 14, 2010
sometimes i feel tt i'm quite immature,
expect pple to pay attention to me and yet,
i dn pay tt much attention to others.
tt's quite selfish of me):
when i'm down, thr are always pple ard to help me up, to cheer me up.
and my emo-ness are usually due to quite childish reasons too.
sometimes i wish tt i could grow up and mature.
i'm not a good girlfriend..
i can't console or cheer tw up over the phone or msn..
i just wish tt i could be thr with him instead..
expect pple to pay attention to me and yet,
i dn pay tt much attention to others.
tt's quite selfish of me):
when i'm down, thr are always pple ard to help me up, to cheer me up.
and my emo-ness are usually due to quite childish reasons too.
sometimes i wish tt i could grow up and mature.
i'm not a good girlfriend..
i can't console or cheer tw up over the phone or msn..
i just wish tt i could be thr with him instead..
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